Secure Enough to Feel Annoyed

Heebie-Geebie, on her mom who has cancer (and her cat who she recently had to put down):

"Mom's next scan is August 9th. I'm pretty terrified. Over the spring there was a stretch where she seemed healthy enough that my old, tender, irritations with her sprang forth. It's like a luxury.

Similarly, when Little Cat first came home from the vet, he acted like his healthy old self for a few days. Complete with biting your skin for attention. I got totally irritated with him when I was trying to work on my song and he kept nibbling my legs. It was wonderful. It's so nice to feel secure enough to feel annoyed.

I don't regret being annoyed with Mom, or with Little Cat, although that was my fear at the time - that I was taking them for granted and I'd regret wasting precious time. But instead I feel thankful that I had a brief respite where I took them for granted and got to feel deliciously annoyed with them."

I enjoy reading Heebie-Geebie's blog. I think she's a kindred spirit -- she seems to enjoy silliness and quotes music lyrics all the time, but has profound thoughts about human nature sometimes.