Who Am I? Jeez

Hi-ho, Kermit the Frog here.

I'm blogging while Dean sleeps. I wanted some wine to relax this evening after a stressful (both good and bad) day, so I had one glass and he finished the bottle. We watched Airplane! and it was just as great as I remembered.

I wish I could plot a graph of my stress during the day. Today I expected the morning to be a crazy crush but it wasn't. It was laidback and happy in the morning and I was almost bored. Then the afternoon blew up with work and I ended up leaving a little late and stressed out. Then I had an awesome meeting with an amazing group therapist who I might start a two-year course with in the summer, and co-lead a group with her! w00t. You see why I left all wound up, with my head full of all the crazy events of the day, and ready for some relaxation.

So, wine and movie and burritos. But after the movie I needed to prepare some presentations for tomorrow and I was back to being stressed again.

I hate how I am when I'm stressed. I have no pity for anybody around me who doesn't quite get what I'm going through. I snap at Dean or my family and then feel ashamed. Because honestly, I don't know that I should get any special treatment just because residency is spinning my head around. But on the other hand, it's hard to control how I feel or react to things.