I'm back to being happy, overall. We'll see how the new rotation at the VA goes, but the first day today wasn't bad. I interviewed a patient in front of the team and I wasn't even that nervous -- I feel like my residency over the past couple months has trained me that well in how to conduct a good interview. Now the key is to figure out what my duties are and carry them out efficiently. :)
Regarding my last post, I guess what had been holding me back (at least, this was what I hit upon with my psychiatrist) was the idea that I needed to withdraw from emotional connections now because in the fall and winter, I'll be on tough rotations and won't be there for my friends and family. So once I identified this as the way I'd been thinking, I was able to see that a) life being tough later doesn't mean I need to withdraw now and b) those tough few months are really just that -- a few months. After that, residency gets more and more enjoyable, according to the more advanced residents.
Tonight, I think my content mood is also related to the friends I saw at Quizzo. It was so nice to relax, have a drink, and joke around with them. I left early, because I'm doing my First Week of the Rotation schedule (in which I go to bed an hour earlier than usual), but I still had fun, and they pleasingly complained at my leaving before the game was done. (I must say, it was nice to get it right that Belize and El Salvador were the two countries in Central America that only face one coast.) (Nerrrrd!)
