Narcissism

Well, I went through a week or so of feeling utterly emotionally horrible. I knew working with my attending would get intense, to work so closely with one other person day in, day out, but people can do that and do well. I knew starting second year of residency would be tough, but that wasn't quite it. I know I wish for a romantic relationship of my own, but that wasn't it either. I finally figured it out with the help of one of my fellow residents. I finally figured out it was a deeper issue of how I felt about this superviser.

I think it was my first taste of ever being emotionally enmeshed with someone with a personality disorder, even though I'm not sure he does quite have a personality disorder (but it's definitely beyond normal eccentricity, so maybe it's in a gray zone, or maybe I'm just chicken), and I don't think I got that enmeshed. Anyway, it reminded me of this blog post, from a blog I loved before the writer abruptly stopped writing.